november 15 2024

 

heat hugs me opening that car

doors slam in our rush to meet

quick to interlace fingers

slow to hug

we are both learning to take

our time.

i slip into the back, appetiteless 

for all of my pain, aching i

crawl home, stomach full

on nothing 

but her.

we sink deep. i feel her in my core.

more human than hero

i glutton myself on our time

and i wonder why i'm never satiated

gasping and grasping

gaping the cavities she seeks to fill

she speaks to me in that foreign language,

kissing worry from my lips with every syllable

each spanning silence her

deliberation.

an eternity in the back of that car

neck nestled deep feeling my collarbone

all too human

a lifetime lived between her breaths

where i patiently grow

tense

anticipating her

awaiting her

for all of the weight of life i

have to hold up

carrying small earths

this weight on me right now

melts me in a way nothing would

she is heat enough

my trauma melting molten

cool car glass

flash fire

turning the small beasts into

stained glass to hang

in the house of my heart

she waits

i exhale.

i haven’t breathed before today

heat hugs me and welcomes me home.